Everything that you do you need to change! Everything that you’re use to…you need to adjust!
Small consistent changes over time will produce large results.
This seems to be the forefront of what is going on. That’s the thing if you are not changing for the better, then what are you actually doing? For the longest time in my life I was lost, with no direction, no ambition to make changes or even further my life in any form. Now that I am working on myself for the last few years I am coming to the point where I want to make not only the internal changes, but the physical changes as well.
There are blogs out there that are all specifically about recovery, about depression, about weight loss, healthy eating, and even about current events that affect us today.
What about life? You know we always see the blogs or websites where the people are successful at the changes and this is how I did it. I get a little frustrated with it because I see it so much; I want to see the struggle, the slow transformation….not the before and after pics.
I am not just talking about weight loss transformation here.
So much has been focused on my recovery because that is a huge a part of my life and what has given me my life, but I want to make sure I show other aspects of it as well.
This is reality…this is a single mother in America.
I lost my job in July last year and trying to survive without help and making $300 a week on unemployment will bring anyone to their knees. They say welfare was designed to help Americans who need it. I needed it, so I got on food stamps. Those food stamps bought my daughter and I food that was actually healthy for us. I was able to provide healthy meals.
In November last year I found a job. I am not one to stay unemployed for very long. Working give me direction and a sense of accomplishment.
I work at a place that is very reputable, that is one of the best companies to work for and the pay to start, well, is decent – or at least it was about 10 years ago. The government decided to take away my food stamps because I made too much money! I was making $200 more every 2 weeks after taxes then I was on unemployment, yet paying $600 more a month in daycare for my daughter.
DOES THIS MAKE SENSE TO ANYONE???
Their reasoning was that a family of 2 people in a household has to make less than $1700 a month BEFORE taxes! Who can even survive off this! Welfare was designed to help Americans get back on their feet, not keep them struggling because they can’t help you when it is actually warranted. People that legitimately need the help CAN’T GET IT!
My daughter and I now can barely have the food we need in the house. We are surviving and there is ALWAYS food in our belly’s, but it’s not the diet that should be fed to my baby or myself. She needs more than carbs, fats, and processed food. Food pantries are help, but you get the same types of food…processed.
We wonder why there is the problem of obesity in America. If we do not teach our kids about the food they put in our bodies this will continue. We lead by example…going to the nearest fast food restaurant or buy all the quick frozen dinners at the grocery store is just showing kids that these food are what we should put in our bodies.
I am a heavier woman that is not a secret. I grew up as a fit and somewhat thinner, but was considered “big boned.” My mother was always in weight watchers and I saw her successfully lose 70 pounds through this program. A lot of what she taught me about writing the food down, being conscious of what I am putting in my body has stuck with me, but I am stubborn, hard headed and impatient…so I lived in the trap of fast food and convenience.
I could be very real and just blurt out my weight, but this isn’t what I am going for here. I want to feel comfortable again, I want to feel healthier, I don’t want my knees to hurt or back to hurt (surgery didn’t help that I am sure), I want to be confident again and feel sexy. I am not looking to become some swimsuit model or even what we have been bombarded with by the media as beautiful, but I want to lose some pounds and become fit.
Recovery has taught me how to stay away from drugs and change my life for the better. How can I view something that I need everyday to live…as a drug? I used drugs to cover up the way I felt. I eat when I am happy, sad, mad, stressed, so really what is the difference?
It is not that I do not think I am beautiful, people. So I am not looking for compliments, I am beautiful, I am curvy and vivacious. I am also beautiful on the inside and have a huge heart. I just want to be fit. I want to fit into the clothes that I chose and not what is available. I know there are several other people out there that feel the same way as me. Where are you? Speak up! Join me!
I want to talk about the real issues. I want this to be real. I want to know what you thoughts are, your feelings are. I want to know your struggles with this and so many other topics.
You have to change EVERYTHING!
So much pressure! Everything really?
People think that if you cut out this, if you limit yourself of that, and kill yourself doing, and then take this pill that the weight will magically fall off and stay off. The thing to remember I didn’t get this way overnight and I certainly am not going to change everything overnight.
Small consistent changes over time will produce LARGE results.
Although, I do not have the extra money for the healthier food or the expensive name brand gluten free items I still am making it work. I have been changing this now for the last 4 weeks. I have changed from a frozen pizza every night when I get home to looking at it in a different perspective.
I am not the typical 9am – 5pm person. I wake up later with my daughter and stay up later. My schedule at work is what dictates this…so…my eating schedule had to change.
YOU CAN’T EAT LATE AT NIGHT WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!
Wrong! I can as long as I do not go directly to sleep. Since my body is use to a different schedule, when the clock turns 8pm my body doesn’t magically say to itself, “keep all this and store it” especially if I am active.
I have taken the food I eat and flipped flopped it around. The traditional 3 meals a day consisted of a light breakfast, a little bit larger lunch, and a hearty dinner that we sit down with the family to eat. WRONG! I have changed to make my breakfast a little bit heavier with a healthy grain, lunch is moderate and dinner does not contain any carbs. I have been doing this now consistently for 4 weeks.
I can’t tell you if I am seeing any results, but I can tell you that I feel better. I have less bloating. I have lost 4 pounds. THAT’S IT?!?! Absolutely! This is a marathon baby not a race.
What I think I am going to do is incorporate some healthy recipe ideas and check in every week with the blogging world. Maybe this can help someone stay motivated or you can help me stay motivated.